Post by Crystal on Sept 26, 2012 3:07:57 GMT -5
Anxiety's Weight
How can I say
I love you?
When I fear
Your departure
How can I smile
When everything's wrong?
How can I hug you tight
Pull my arms around
Your tall, dark form?
How can I laugh
Like the pain's gone?
How can I say goodbye?
When all I want
Is to press closer
All the way up
Tightly held
Against you
Where do I find
The strength to express
My worries, doubts
That linger, collecting dust
Inside of my hideous
Terror drenched mind
Booby-trapped for lies
Negativity's only let in
How do I believe
The stuffing placed delicately
Into your turkey
That you have made for me?
When my mind spins around
Spewing words you've once said?
Playing images repeatedly?
Why can't I grow up
Toss away inhibitions
And allow myself to sink
Into the reality of life?
Because, as a child
Given toys, told stories
Someone once believed
That I could acheive 'anything'
Does that mean something
Unspoken in it's words, secretly?
And when the world disbelieves
Does that limit
The 'anything'
I can actually achieve?
I wish I could say I am happy
I wish I could say it's alright
I'm ruining everyone's life
I'll leave them all behind
But wait! Why
Should I forget me?
The little key
That's bend, unshaped
Perfectly
For the lock it
Fits tightly inside
Turn the handle
And open the door
There I am
The blood's escaping me
Call the ambulance
Alert the nurse
Awaken the doctor
From his happy slumber
Tell me how it's all
'gunna be alright'
Warn me how I
'could have died'
Like I didn't want that anyway
I wish I could actually die
Life's snickering, I can't see
Where does he lurk in my mind?
What corner did I leave unchecked?
And what road do I choose?
What happiness will elude me?
How can I say
I love you?
When I fear
Your departure
How can I smile
When everything's wrong?
How can I hug you tight
Pull my arms around
Your tall, dark form?
How can I laugh
Like the pain's gone?
How can I say goodbye?
When all I want
Is to press closer
All the way up
Tightly held
Against you
Where do I find
The strength to express
My worries, doubts
That linger, collecting dust
Inside of my hideous
Terror drenched mind
Booby-trapped for lies
Negativity's only let in
How do I believe
The stuffing placed delicately
Into your turkey
That you have made for me?
When my mind spins around
Spewing words you've once said?
Playing images repeatedly?
Why can't I grow up
Toss away inhibitions
And allow myself to sink
Into the reality of life?
Because, as a child
Given toys, told stories
Someone once believed
That I could acheive 'anything'
Does that mean something
Unspoken in it's words, secretly?
And when the world disbelieves
Does that limit
The 'anything'
I can actually achieve?
I wish I could say I am happy
I wish I could say it's alright
I'm ruining everyone's life
I'll leave them all behind
But wait! Why
Should I forget me?
The little key
That's bend, unshaped
Perfectly
For the lock it
Fits tightly inside
Turn the handle
And open the door
There I am
The blood's escaping me
Call the ambulance
Alert the nurse
Awaken the doctor
From his happy slumber
Tell me how it's all
'gunna be alright'
Warn me how I
'could have died'
Like I didn't want that anyway
I wish I could actually die
Life's snickering, I can't see
Where does he lurk in my mind?
What corner did I leave unchecked?
And what road do I choose?
What happiness will elude me?