Post by Crystal on Sept 26, 2012 2:58:50 GMT -5
Medicated Lies
To forget where I came from
The muddled confusion I've felt
What have I really done?
Where on earth do I stand?
I wish I could just smile
Looking up, a booming face
Happiness doesn't radiate within
Sadness, drenched in fear
And what on earth, you ask?
Two seconds I was smiling,
Bouncing around my room
Cheery, I danced onward
Then something sunk deep inside
A weighted course, pulling me down
Now here I sit, suicide's grasping
And all I want to do - sleep
Disappear into the nightmare
Puff away all of my problems
No, instead I'll face it
What is a storm, when eyes are covered?
Did it magically disappear too, for you?
Does it go away, when you say 'goodbye'?
Or did it rock the boat horribly?
Tip it over, the captain's sunk
Sinking into the brimey deep, water's splashing
And all along, he holds his eyes covered tight
I wish I could live like you
Pain and injections
Without the worry of 'tomorrow'
And without the reminder
Of a dead and cold 'yesterday'
Instead, I pull myself onto my feet
Hide the trembling with a gown
Mask the heart attack with a smile
Hold back my choking in front of the crowd
Why can't I breathe the air easily?
I don't need what the world needs
Some form of medication to drown in
Numbness to erase the pain I feel
Lies, so that I can fatten up instead
I can stand as I tremble, convulsing
The blood will pour only if I say so
But maybe death would be better.
How are we all "meant to live"
When we also unanimously agree
There are too many humans
Anyway?
To forget where I came from
The muddled confusion I've felt
What have I really done?
Where on earth do I stand?
I wish I could just smile
Looking up, a booming face
Happiness doesn't radiate within
Sadness, drenched in fear
And what on earth, you ask?
Two seconds I was smiling,
Bouncing around my room
Cheery, I danced onward
Then something sunk deep inside
A weighted course, pulling me down
Now here I sit, suicide's grasping
And all I want to do - sleep
Disappear into the nightmare
Puff away all of my problems
No, instead I'll face it
What is a storm, when eyes are covered?
Did it magically disappear too, for you?
Does it go away, when you say 'goodbye'?
Or did it rock the boat horribly?
Tip it over, the captain's sunk
Sinking into the brimey deep, water's splashing
And all along, he holds his eyes covered tight
I wish I could live like you
Pain and injections
Without the worry of 'tomorrow'
And without the reminder
Of a dead and cold 'yesterday'
Instead, I pull myself onto my feet
Hide the trembling with a gown
Mask the heart attack with a smile
Hold back my choking in front of the crowd
Why can't I breathe the air easily?
I don't need what the world needs
Some form of medication to drown in
Numbness to erase the pain I feel
Lies, so that I can fatten up instead
I can stand as I tremble, convulsing
The blood will pour only if I say so
But maybe death would be better.
How are we all "meant to live"
When we also unanimously agree
There are too many humans
Anyway?