Post by Crystal on Aug 31, 2012 3:58:18 GMT -5
Emptiness swallows up my words
Consuming me with tears
A bitter, broken toy
Trashed, tossed upon your door
I wish that words would find,
A guiltily placed, "I'm alright"
And yet, nothing falls forth
Only tears I cannot cry
Would you sleep a night?
Or leave me for a life?
Abandonment, I'm prepared
Loneliness, my only Achille's
Still, pull on the smiles
And let the rianbow shine through
It's fake, you know that
But maybe for tonight
We'll pretend it's reality
You're...
Interesting, the lies breed
The hate falsely perceived
And I'm left all alone
And even this
Words spoken lyrically
We call it poetry?
Filth escapes my lips,
Wind up!
For words pour out
A phantom ghost haunting me
And I'm meek, unborn
The child you must hate
A toy, broken
Not even noteworthy
of being used
Still I settle
for being used
And the blood's caked
Browning into dirt
That's tainted, this filth
And my eyes, half shut
Can barely open...
Why, lover?
Do I close my eyes?
Drift off to sleep
And in my dream, demons!
But only the wind, holding me
When I push, it pulls
I'm trapped, you see
I can't move, I try
Inpassable fortress surrounds
And beings, human?
or are they demon still?
Break in, laughing - mocking
Things I can rightly see!
They...
always...
consume...
And there is no freedom
Day breaks, a whisper
The wind in gentle come morn'
But, you're not here
Why is that so?
Another dream, I'm trapped within
And I've had dreams - visions!
I'm running in place
The more I try, muscles
Aching until I cannot stand
I cannot breathe!
The wind pushes me back still
I run in place
Happiness floods me
To hear your voice
Even inside a dream
Why break that?
Because I deserve it?
Happiness swallows me
To see your face
Even in my imagination
Why destroy that?
Because of my lack
of utter, undying worth?
Happiness fills me
To read letters - a message!
Coming straight from your hands
Why erase that?
Because of just...
Who I am?
I'm not worthy, it's true
I never...no never!
Said that I was, did I?
But please stop lying
It's ok, I've warranted this
It's ok, I'm cursed this
It's ok, I'm used to this,
It's ok, I'm actually nothing
Smashing me into the carpet
Rub away what's left of -
My existance, It's bleak!
I admit, I'm a mess
Trapped inside the walls of
my dying heart!
"Emo" some call it,
Heck.
I can't help...
The words leave me,
World's gone black
Where are you, dear?
Leave me
I...
wouldn't stay,
either.
I...
Love...
Do you even care?
Say it, I'll believe it
Every single time.
Stare into my eyes
The pool I drown in
Ignore the dying girl, gasping
Without air to breathe
And just....tell me
"I love you" too?
I'll shut up,
I know I'm such a bummer!
is that why...
you never wanted me
around?
oh, shush, you don't have
to say the words
plans made with friends,
excluding me - even girls
Before me, their worthy higher.
But heck,
that's never changed.
Ever.
Even with.
My.
firstlove.
Oh well, I'm filth.
I get it.
A thousand baths can't
Wash away the stain
one can cause you
When you say "no" and
they mean "yes".
Scrub a little harder?
Doesn't it hurt,
when you press so hard
skin peels off, into!
the wash cloth?
Fear...
Whatever, I'm lying
To you and myself
I'm too putrid, horrid!
For nuts to happen
I'm not even worthy of death!
I'd rip out my hair,
Cut away my face
Make me into the monster
Staring back at me
In the mirrors - I see!
But I don't dare risk
De-prettying -
My alreay messed up,
destroyed
form.
And...
I wouldn't procreate
with me either -
So, don't lie
To me or yourself
WORLD!
I'm worthless.
less for without.
Worth, what I'm without.
without worth.
worthless.
I know I know,
Does this ever end?
We all know you're ruined
torn seams ripped away!
Goodbye, I pray
The end.
Consuming me with tears
A bitter, broken toy
Trashed, tossed upon your door
I wish that words would find,
A guiltily placed, "I'm alright"
And yet, nothing falls forth
Only tears I cannot cry
Would you sleep a night?
Or leave me for a life?
Abandonment, I'm prepared
Loneliness, my only Achille's
Still, pull on the smiles
And let the rianbow shine through
It's fake, you know that
But maybe for tonight
We'll pretend it's reality
You're...
Interesting, the lies breed
The hate falsely perceived
And I'm left all alone
And even this
Words spoken lyrically
We call it poetry?
Filth escapes my lips,
Wind up!
For words pour out
A phantom ghost haunting me
And I'm meek, unborn
The child you must hate
A toy, broken
Not even noteworthy
of being used
Still I settle
for being used
And the blood's caked
Browning into dirt
That's tainted, this filth
And my eyes, half shut
Can barely open...
Why, lover?
Do I close my eyes?
Drift off to sleep
And in my dream, demons!
But only the wind, holding me
When I push, it pulls
I'm trapped, you see
I can't move, I try
Inpassable fortress surrounds
And beings, human?
or are they demon still?
Break in, laughing - mocking
Things I can rightly see!
They...
always...
consume...
And there is no freedom
Day breaks, a whisper
The wind in gentle come morn'
But, you're not here
Why is that so?
Another dream, I'm trapped within
And I've had dreams - visions!
I'm running in place
The more I try, muscles
Aching until I cannot stand
I cannot breathe!
The wind pushes me back still
I run in place
Happiness floods me
To hear your voice
Even inside a dream
Why break that?
Because I deserve it?
Happiness swallows me
To see your face
Even in my imagination
Why destroy that?
Because of my lack
of utter, undying worth?
Happiness fills me
To read letters - a message!
Coming straight from your hands
Why erase that?
Because of just...
Who I am?
I'm not worthy, it's true
I never...no never!
Said that I was, did I?
But please stop lying
It's ok, I've warranted this
It's ok, I'm cursed this
It's ok, I'm used to this,
It's ok, I'm actually nothing
Smashing me into the carpet
Rub away what's left of -
My existance, It's bleak!
I admit, I'm a mess
Trapped inside the walls of
my dying heart!
"Emo" some call it,
Heck.
I can't help...
The words leave me,
World's gone black
Where are you, dear?
Leave me
I...
wouldn't stay,
either.
I...
Love...
Do you even care?
Say it, I'll believe it
Every single time.
Stare into my eyes
The pool I drown in
Ignore the dying girl, gasping
Without air to breathe
And just....tell me
"I love you" too?
I'll shut up,
I know I'm such a bummer!
is that why...
you never wanted me
around?
oh, shush, you don't have
to say the words
plans made with friends,
excluding me - even girls
Before me, their worthy higher.
But heck,
that's never changed.
Ever.
Even with.
My.
firstlove.
Oh well, I'm filth.
I get it.
A thousand baths can't
Wash away the stain
one can cause you
When you say "no" and
they mean "yes".
Scrub a little harder?
Doesn't it hurt,
when you press so hard
skin peels off, into!
the wash cloth?
Fear...
Whatever, I'm lying
To you and myself
I'm too putrid, horrid!
For nuts to happen
I'm not even worthy of death!
I'd rip out my hair,
Cut away my face
Make me into the monster
Staring back at me
In the mirrors - I see!
But I don't dare risk
De-prettying -
My alreay messed up,
destroyed
form.
And...
I wouldn't procreate
with me either -
So, don't lie
To me or yourself
WORLD!
I'm worthless.
less for without.
Worth, what I'm without.
without worth.
worthless.
I know I know,
Does this ever end?
We all know you're ruined
torn seams ripped away!
Goodbye, I pray
The end.