Post by Crystal on Jun 9, 2010 13:31:36 GMT -5
She's not normal, and part of her can sense it. There are days where's she's spent her whole time and the whole day, questioning herself and wondering who she was and what she was supposed to do. And in that, I mean, she "blacks out" and she forgets everything that once existed, and becomes someone totally new and unknown, to even herself. She no longer feels like who she once was, and she questions her very existence, always pondering and thinking in her head. She's unable to speak or vocalize anything at this point, and stands there with a goofy grin and a stupid, placid face, as she tries to summon some sort of meaning and some words out of her mouth, only for nothing to come out.
She's usually a very warm and friendly person to those she doesn't know. She's al2ways welcoming and kind, talking in a calm and friendly manner, and enjoying the other's company. She loves to socialize and to be out around others, and she seems to know all the right things to say, to keep the conversation to a flowing point, always with the social manners that work like a charm.
However, she's a different person with those that are closest she explodes and she has a violent temper. The littlest things can fire her off, and she's yelling and pregnant doging them out, being a royal B.I.T.C.H. around them. She becomes one of the worst friends that you could ever have in your ENTIRE life time, and she realizes exactly what she's doing, but she still continues to do it. She will find the tiniest excuse to pregnant dog someone out, and she will use it to her full advantage, yelling and throwing up a storm. But she is only like this to those she is closest with.
And why? She is afraid that they might leave her one day. With severe abandonment issues, she ends up figuring that it is best to test how loyal they are, and to push those that would leave anyways away, so that she won't be hurt later on down the line. She fights with them and picks battles often, claiming that she just "loves" arguing, when in reality it tears her apart on the inside.
She also fights with her world. It's always changing on her, and she thinks that she can see things, that aren't actually there, although these hallucinations only last for about a split second. Still, it gives her quite a scare, to see something for a second, and then it's gone in another, and so it causes her to stress out even more. Which, that lights her fuse and so she stays on a short fuse naturally, always stressed out.
She has an issue with stress. She stresses out about anything and everything, and it bothers her, working her up. She tries not to, but she does regardless. She tries nonetheless, to lead a normal, and calm life. However, that little to never seems to work.
She's usually a very warm and friendly person to those she doesn't know. She's al2ways welcoming and kind, talking in a calm and friendly manner, and enjoying the other's company. She loves to socialize and to be out around others, and she seems to know all the right things to say, to keep the conversation to a flowing point, always with the social manners that work like a charm.
However, she's a different person with those that are closest she explodes and she has a violent temper. The littlest things can fire her off, and she's yelling and pregnant doging them out, being a royal B.I.T.C.H. around them. She becomes one of the worst friends that you could ever have in your ENTIRE life time, and she realizes exactly what she's doing, but she still continues to do it. She will find the tiniest excuse to pregnant dog someone out, and she will use it to her full advantage, yelling and throwing up a storm. But she is only like this to those she is closest with.
And why? She is afraid that they might leave her one day. With severe abandonment issues, she ends up figuring that it is best to test how loyal they are, and to push those that would leave anyways away, so that she won't be hurt later on down the line. She fights with them and picks battles often, claiming that she just "loves" arguing, when in reality it tears her apart on the inside.
She also fights with her world. It's always changing on her, and she thinks that she can see things, that aren't actually there, although these hallucinations only last for about a split second. Still, it gives her quite a scare, to see something for a second, and then it's gone in another, and so it causes her to stress out even more. Which, that lights her fuse and so she stays on a short fuse naturally, always stressed out.
She has an issue with stress. She stresses out about anything and everything, and it bothers her, working her up. She tries not to, but she does regardless. She tries nonetheless, to lead a normal, and calm life. However, that little to never seems to work.